Have you ever felt like you are overloaded with responsibilities all of a sudden?When you need to make those "duty" calls to people whom you don't even know,when you got to think for 5 people before you decide on something, when the "I think" becomes "We think", when you feel like you are doing things more for others than for yourself!!!! Well, its official.. I have been hit by the quarter life crisis!!! I have been trying to push the thought out of my mind for the past year (that's when I hit 25), but it keeps catching up!!!Not that I shy away from responsibilities, but sometimes it gets to you.Its then when you think of your carefree days of the past.You think of things that you did when you were in your ahem.. ahem.. early 20's.Small things bought a lot of joy then.Weekends were blissful days...and you made meticulous plans.. with clockwork precision.Movies, Shopping, Coffeshops and restaurants were the favourite haunts.I still remember the fun I had with my friends - cooking was fun,housekeeping was fun and even work was fun!!! There were crazy times too - like when it was someone's bday, everyone had a blast.There was the "surprise" cake-cutting (invariably the person knew the cake was coming -yet managed to act surprised).Then there were brain-storming sessions - the majority of all these sessions had one topic "solving boyfriend related issues"!!! Discussions ranged from about who likes who, whether its right to like someone, how to go about your first date to solving breakup issues.And all those late-night gossip... with bowls of maggie that lasted upto 6:00 in the morning and oh my, the crazy disco sessions!!!!Did we ever have any issues then - I often think.It doesn't seem like we had any.. or even if we did, we always believed they were somehow solvable.Those days seem way long ago now.
Things seemed changed now and I said earlier its not only the responsibility part.It's I guess you being accountable for your actions and also the fact that your actions have a lot of impact on many people's life.Its like a avalanche effect..small things get blown out of proportion.Somehow, you are expected to be act in accordance to others thoughts.There are people telling you to plan your future (did we even have to be bothered about what we were going to do the next day back then???).A few relationships become the very core of your existence.You are expected to do a balancing act every now and then.
But yeah, I guess its plain human tendency to always look back at things and wonder how nice they were.The key I think is to be grounded and let all this not affect your core-self.Even during this phase, you have people around you who love you and always will stand upto you, come what may- I guess you just need to take that into account and get over with it.Maybe when I am 50 and facing my mid-life crisis, this would look trivial!!!!!
